Day Two
I hope it's better than day one. Day one hit me like a brick wall. I felt lonely and isolated and like I didn't belong. I know I'll get used to it but I really didn't realize it was going to be as difficult as it was. I feel a little better today going in. At least day one is behind me. I'm just struggling to see where I am going to fit in. It was just such a change.
New people, new place, new hours, new rules. Lots of rules. So far I get no contact with the outside world except on my breaks and my lunch period. That was a hard adjustment.
Both times I called Michelle she was slammed at work and couldn't really talk. It was hard to not be able to have her call me back when her load lightened.
I think I can adjust to their systems and how they do things but it's going to take some time. I knew all the terminology and didn't look like an idiot when discussing work stuff so that was good.
We'll see how day two goes. I can't help feeling a little bit like I made a mistake. I know that feeling will go away in time. I just can't wait for that time. Because for now I am sad and lonely and not quite adjusting mentally the way that I thought. I think I'm not nearly as strong as I thought I have become.
New people, new place, new hours, new rules. Lots of rules. So far I get no contact with the outside world except on my breaks and my lunch period. That was a hard adjustment.
Both times I called Michelle she was slammed at work and couldn't really talk. It was hard to not be able to have her call me back when her load lightened.
I think I can adjust to their systems and how they do things but it's going to take some time. I knew all the terminology and didn't look like an idiot when discussing work stuff so that was good.
We'll see how day two goes. I can't help feeling a little bit like I made a mistake. I know that feeling will go away in time. I just can't wait for that time. Because for now I am sad and lonely and not quite adjusting mentally the way that I thought. I think I'm not nearly as strong as I thought I have become.
posted by Bravie at 7:13 AM
17 Comments:
Yes you are as strong.
I've changed jobs way more than you and can tell you I've felt exactly how you described just about every single time. By the third week you'll start feeling like it's home, at least that's pretty much my timeline. Deep breathe - focus on just the work aspect of your job and all the rest will fall together.
*smooch I'm proud of you. And just between you and me, just about every new job I've ever started I cried the first week.
You will be fine. Promise.
This is exactly how I felt when we got to North Carolina. I wanted change soooooo badly and then when it came, it was extremely difficult to embrace and flourish.
Hang in there. You are just as strong as you were before, you're just out of your comfort zone. Soon the new job and the new people and new place will become your comfort zone.
Sometimes the best growth happens when we take that first step out of our comfort zone and out of our bubble.
Hang in there and know that you have a multitude of friends who support you in all sorts of crazy ways.
*flashes Bravie*
You are strong!
Just keep telling yourslef that, please?
*smooch*
Hang in there. I'm very proud of you. You'll be fine.
*hugs* Give it time. It's a big change and it's going to be strange at first. You can do it.
Yep...that's exactly how I felt too. Gawd! What have I done! This will pass. Trust us.
First weeks are a bitch. It WILL get better. *hugs*
Didn't I tell you on Sunday that at one point you would probably say to yourself "what have I done?! I want to go back". *thinks Augie is brilliant!* But you don't really want to go back to the horrible Boss Lady and the company that did not have a future.
You will be fine. You will make friends, you will fit in, you will find your groove. Give it some time. *smooch*
Every time I start in a new place I play a game. How long can I go this week without feeling like a fuckup? And I specifically used the work "fuck" for you.
*smooch*
You're going to be fine.
The "new" Boo is swearing more than "Fucking Darlene". *grin*
*hugs*
You're going to be great. You are as strong as you thought you were, first days at new places are very hard.
That old place was making you miserable. Better to take a scary step in a potentially great direction than to be comfortably miserable.
When in doubt, go have a new fangled pod of coffee, take a deep breath, and relax.
You should really go read some of your old posts about how miserable you were at the last place.
But really, so what if you can't flourish there? You give it a year and look for something else. You've raised your salary in the marketplace and can milk this job for all it's worth in the job hunting market. There's your worst case scenario. Not so bad, is it? Your first year will fly by.
You'll be fine, Bravie. Listen to what everyone has said and just give it a little time. You know you're good at what you do!
What is your personal "space" like there? An office? A cube? I always felt more in control of a new job situation once I took control of my space.
Change is not comfortable. But you will grow to be comfortable there, and you'll find your niche in the new workplace. You are strong enough for this.
*smooch*
*agrees with all the wise peeps*
Hey, did you get my voice mail?
*smooch*
Hang in there!
Oh my! You poor thing, *BIGHUGS*
Now, no more sympathy, stand up tall.
It will get better, that "new kid" feeling will go away, you didn't make a mistake. You are brave, making a change takes courage, and you are doing it.
It's gonna be good, it's gonna be so good!
Toatlly agree with everyone ^up there^. It's just like a breakup. After a while you think you made a mistake because you think about all the good things from before because it's safe. But remember why you left, and all the crap that you put up with that made you start to plan your getaway.
It's natural to feel like you made a mistake. Hang in there. If you feel the same way in 6 months, then reassess. But give it a chance for now, k?
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